DAY 2. OMG WHYYYYYYYYY!!!!!! Why have I done this to myself? I opened hell's door today, dizzy, brain zaps every time I blink or move my head. I've had diarrhea aalllllll day, nauseated, and the worst of all, I feel like I'm not real. I feel like I've gone insane, I can't think straight at all and I'm out of wine :( I know there is reasons for going through this, but it's gonna suck so bad. It actually feels like the way it feels if you smoke too much weed or hash and you get too high, you cant think and you freak out, you know you aren't going to die cause it's weed and it non toxic, but it's really freaky and scary and uncomfortable. I've never tried any other drugs, but I would say, based on personal experience, that's pretty close to what I feel like right now, except I feel like that ALL. DAMN. DAY. I'm miserable, I wish I could take my skin off, I'm itchy, I hate life. I
Crochet and humour are my two little helpers on my battle through mental illness. I often can't leave my house, I'm alone in here while the world goes on around me, but with enough laughter, the love from my family and some busywork, I will continue to fight through it and I will always be okay.