Crochet and Tasteless Humour

 DAY 2.                OMG WHYYYYYYYYY!!!!!! Why have I done this to myself? I opened hell's door today, dizzy, brain zaps every time I blink or move my head. I've had diarrhea aalllllll day, nauseated, and the worst of all, I feel like I'm not real. I feel like I've gone insane, I can't think straight at all and I'm out of wine :(             I know there is reasons for going through this, but it's gonna suck so bad.          It actually feels like the way it feels if you smoke too much weed or hash and you get too high, you cant think and you freak out, you know you aren't going to die cause it's weed and it non toxic, but it's really freaky and scary and uncomfortable. I've never tried any other drugs, but I would say, based on personal experience, that's pretty close to what I feel like right now, except I feel like that ALL. DAMN. DAY.               I'm miserable, I wish I could take my skin off, I'm itchy, I hate life. I

               This is going to be a detour from a solely crocheting blog for about a month(there will still be some though, don't worry) Today is day 1 without any Lexapro. In the last few months I have gone from 20mg to 2.5mg, the only major side effect during that time was fatigue and anger. However I have come off an SSRI twice before, Zoloft when I was 13 and Paxil when I was 27, and I know that it's once you quit the last bit,thats when the real withdrawals start. I see a ton of people online asking about withdrawals and also weight issues, so I though this way, anyone thinking about quitting can read this and get some damn answers for once.                 I went on Lexapro about 2 years ago for anxiety and I also have a type of OCD called pure O. The problem is that ssris do two very bad things to me, they make me crave food and alcohol so badly that it's not even really a craving, I can't say no, and they make me fat(for obvious reasons). When I was on the pax

       The best thing about having a blog that I don't get paid for, is that I can come and go as I please, and if nobody reads it that's cool too. It's been a month or so since I posted cause I do what I damn well please And I'm a die hard badass ;) I almost never take crochet breaks, but I just took a month off just because I can, I did nothing except one row a day on my temperature blanket(I will post about that very soon)       I've been messing with my meds a bit, ssris make me fat and lazy so I try to stay off of them as often as possible, once I hit 125-130lbs that's it, I'm coming off. So I'm slowly tapering the Lexapro and increasing the wellbutrin. Good bye muffin top, hello crippling anxiety and obsessive thoughts. Fun.       That aside, I maded this here baby skull cap, cause who says babies can only wear pink and blue?       Isn't it adorable? I don't know if this means I'm back in the game again or not, but I sure do