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Off ssris for two whole weeks!

               Just in case you haven't figured it out yet, I'm effing crazy and coming off my crazy pills is hard. It's been easier this time than it was last time though, probably because I now know to taper off as much as possible before actually quitting(live and learn). It been two weeks now and I gotta say, I feel a lot better. I'm still really bitchy, crank all day, no patience...my poor husband :( Ryan's been so good about it though, he's kept his calm the whole time. He's been planning hikes every couple of days and getting everything packed. He knows I love being outdoors and he knows I need to excercise when I'm sick, more than I actually want to excercise. So he does all of this, as well as going to work every day, he's awesome!
               I've had one thing going for me lately, I started a temperature blanket this year(I know, crochet basic bitch lol). It has helped a lot because on the days when I felt like I couldn't do anything, I still did my one row on my blanket, so at least I did one thing.
not a great pic, but that's my temperature blanket so far


                  It  usually takes about three weeks to start feeling better after quitting ssris, but I honestly now think that tapering is the key. like I said, I'm still grumpy, had a tantrum two days ago and I still feel a bit yucky in general, but I am at about 80% and its only been two weeks. I also thing a lot of it has been spending as much time as possible out of the house;  hiking, bonfires, beer;  good old Canadian fun. oh and did I mention I was at 137 pounds two weeks ago, I am already down to 130 pounds, there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Outdoors and beer with the best husband in the world



bonfire by the lake, that's the way to go.
if the fire doesn't make you feel better, the calm water will.



                   For anyone thinking of going through this, please give tapering a try and GO OUTSIDE! Even if you don't want to, just do it. even on days that all you can do is wrap your blanket around you and sit outside for 5 minutes, do that. If it's cold, bring tea. And realize that it will take time, give it a month though, you'll be back to your old self before you know it.



P.S.Crochet patterns and mental health updates to come........








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